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Helloooooo! I know, it has been an OUTRAGEOUSLY long time since I updated.

I’ve actually begun a new blog, for a few simple reasons… So this blog will be ending. I was 18 when I started it and although the posts are interesting to look back on,  I’d rather put them in the past.

If you would like to keep up with my new blog, and I would be thrilled to have you as an audience, you can keep up with me over here at http://fritrick.wordpress.com

I’ll see you there!

Spread the love, keep the peace~

In other news… I know I still haven’t answered a lot of questions from the whole “Interrogate Emily” thing. The truth is, I hate making those videos. Just sitting there talking about myself isn’t worth the time and effort it takes to make a video. Sooo I’m going to answer all the questions here, through text. Look, here are some now!

Do you think James would look cool with a mohawk?

- No, he’d look dumb.

What do you think of the new Eisley album that is streaming on their myspace?

- They’ve been hanging around too much New Found Glory and Taking Back Sunday. Blech.

if u could have 3 super powers 1) one to fulfill ur greatest dream/wish/desire 2) one to benefit the world and 3) one to smite ur foes what would these three super powers be?

- My first power to fulfill my greatest dream would be endless creativity and inspiration. Then I’d never run out of ideas for anything. My second power to benefit the world would be an unbreakable heart. If you’re going to face the tragedies of the world, that’s something you’ll be grateful for. My third power to smite my foes would be the ability to forgive everything. Nothing pisses a foe off more than being forgiven.

How has your personality changed over time?

- It has gone all over the place, and yet stayed the same. I have changed in so many ways… I have been so immature at times, so arrogant other times, so unsure of myself, so lost, so negative, and then so positive. I think my greatest change was learning – TRULY learning – that what is popular is not always cool. I always thought I knew that, but it has only been in the past year or two that I have truly discovered that I, as strange and unpopular as I may be, am cool despite what others may think.

Was there anything else you wanted to be other than an artist when you were younger?

- Art has always been #1 for me, but there were a few other things! I have considered teaching, as well as being an astronaut, a firefighter, and the first woman president.

will u be answering any of these questions any time soon?

- No.

What is the answer to the world, the universe, and everything?

- All we are is a result of what we have thought.

how did you decide on the name hobbes for your cat?

- James and I were sitting there watching this chubby little orange kitten tumble and waddle around, when James said “Hobbes!” When we took him home we changed his name to Merry but after a day we realized that the only name for him was Hobbes. James and I are big Calvin and Hobbes fans, btw.

How’s your relationship with your dad?

- I was always a daddy’s girl. I was completely obsessed with him. I remember being a kid and saying he was the handsomest man in the world and I wanted to marry someone JUST like him. I thought he was the most amazing thing ever. At some point things changed, but I still adore my dad. I respect and admire him so much for what he has accomplished in life, and I still think he’s right about everything. If anyone ever contradicts the computer or car advice he has given me, I’ll be like “well my dad said this so you’re wrong and he’s right.” It took me forever to trust James with a computer. “That’s not how my dad does it.” And his sense of humor is so corny. I’m the one that always laughs at his jokes, without fail. Dad-jokes are some of the best. I really look up to him and love him in a way that’s different than with my other family members. It’s like no matter what he says or does that hurts me, I can’t help but forgive him at the end of the day. Well, most of the time.

What would you prefer…for a guy to be ugly but a great personality or great looking but a crappy personality!

- Great personality, of course. Looks just grab your attention. It’s the conversation that holds you to them.

That’s all for now. PEACE.

Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
personality test by similarminds.com

Stability results were medium which suggests you are moderately relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were very low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were very low which suggests you are extremely reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:
introverted, secretive, messy, depressed, does not like leadership, somewhat nihilistic, observer, does not make friends easily, unassertive, feels invisible, feels undesirable, hates large parties, does not like to stand out, leisurely, suspicious, submissive, abstract, unpredictable, intellectual, likes rain, likes the unknown, negative, weird, not a risk taker, unadventurous, avoidant, strange

I’m thinking about making an aim sn specifically for youtube people to talk to me. Sometimes I feel like I’m okay with giving out my sn, but 90% of the time I just don’t feel like talking. Getting IMs from people all the time would probably annoy me when I’m not in the mood. Do you think it’s a good idea for me to make an aim SN that I can log onto whenever I feel like talking to people from youtube on a more personal level?

On another note… Halloween! How exciting. I will be dressing up as… as… Um… Well, I’m not sure what you’d call it. But I’m dressing up for work, and so are two people I work with. I will take pictures and post them eventually. ^_^

I hope everyone has a pleasant Halloween!

My life really isn’t interesting, so there’s nothing to say about that. As far as my opinions go, those are interesting but really not well thought out and I don’t feel like bothering with it. Hmmmmmmmmmm…..

Well, I guess I will make this entry about Sims 2. A lot of people have been asking me where/how I get such cool hairs/clothes/makeup/etc. So this is for you people.

First off. When you go to a site and choose something you want to download, this is what you do.

1. Make sure you have Winzip. It makes everything easier. Go to winzip.com and download the free trial. It lasts for a long time.

2. Download it and save it onto your desktop or someplace that is easily accessible.

3. I usually wait until I’m done going through allllll the websites I know of and downloading all the things I want… by then I have like 100 – 300 downloads on my desktop. I open up the first one with winzip.

4. Click extract. It’ll ask you what folder you want to extract it to. Extract it to…. My Documents\EA Games\The Sims 2\Downloads … ok? But make sure you include the whole C:\whateverwhateverwhatever part. I just didn’t include it because it’s different for everyone. Moving on.

5. Once you have extracted it into your Downloads folder, close that Winzip window and open the next. When you have done this with all of the files and all of them have been extracted into the correct folder, they should be in your game when you start it up next time.

NOW! I will share my secrets with you. Here are some of my favorite sites to get Sims downloads.

www.modthesims2.com

www.xmsims.com

www.raonsims.com

www.peggysims2.net

and occasionally… thesims2.ea.com

There are more, I know, but I have forgotten them. My favorite users on modthesims2.com are as follows…

http://modthesims2.com/creator/Enayla – Makes AMAZING skins and eyes, and is also an amazing artist.

http://modthesims2.com/creator/bruno – All of his stuff is done well. Even though I don’t like most of the stuff for my own game, once in a while I find something that is just awesome.

There are more I can’t remember… Well here is a list of sites. I haven’t tried them all. Some of them will probably be lame. But here is a list of sites:

http://compsimgames.about.com/od/thesims2fansitesatoz/The_Sims_2_Downloads_Fan_Sites_A_to_Z.htm

Okay, that’s it for now.

In other news, Alicia Silverstone loves plants and will get naked to prove it! Loooool.

So I figure I’ll update this again.

Life is okay. Working and schooling. I have time for other things, but I usually spend them with James and Hobbes or playing games. I’m not a social creature and so it’s rare I want to get on AIM or call anyone. I just wanna play my Sims ^_^

I started a Legacy family. The founder is beautiful. The most beautiful sim I ever made. This is what she looks like:

Really pretty, huh? She usually wears a lot less makeup and has messy hair, but it was her wedding day so I dressed her up. ^_^

So yeah. Lots of working, lots of schooling, lots of Simming, lots of James and Hobbes-ing. Work is the usual work, blah blah blah. School is going good. It’s hard to get the hang of online classes but I’m getting it. I’ve turned in all my assignments perfectly so far. ^_^ Math, which is not online, is going really well too. I’m actually doing better than I usually do. I’m keeping myself focused for pretty much the whole class, which is a first, and I’m doing well with the math itself. It’s more like a review since I took this class a year and a half ago (and failed it), but I know it’ll get harder. I’m going to pass it this time though, for sure. I don’t talk to anyone. I don’t want to. I’m not there to make friends, I’m there to get my education. The last year I was in college I spent too much time meeting guys. Bleh.

James got a wide screen monitor for his computer. It’s so fucking phat, dude. He wasn’t going to get it for a few more weeks but then he found this guy selling it for $200 less than it is in stores so he just went ahead and got it. James really impressed me with all the computer stuff actually. He did a lot of fixing and adjusting lately. Fixed his totally fried computer in fact. I was impressed. ^_^

Anyway, I have more to say but I’m starting to wish I hadn’t began writing this. I’ll post again soon.

- Emily.

James works 30 minutes away and he drove all the way home on his lunch break just so he could see me for a second and bring me a bag of chips. I am loved!

Okay, so I’m going to try this new thing called honest blogging. What I am about to say may hit you hard, or maybe you just don’t give a damn. I do give a damn though, and I have been wanting to say this for a long time.

I have this image on youtube that I am some sweet, loving, great person. I’m not saying that’s a lie, because it isn’t. I know that I am a sweet, loving, great person. But that is not all that I am. I can also be really rude. Bitchy even. Offensive, crude, you name it. James and I absolutely LOVE tasteless jokes that would make some people cringe. I hit people a lot, and I don’t know why. I use “gay” as a synonym for stupid. I’ll even admit that yes, I do say the N word. Granted I NEVER use it offensively, pretty much only say it when I am mocking those who defend the right to say it more often than they say the word “the” (such as rappers and the thugged out youth that surrounds my area), and I always avoid saying it around anyone who I think may be offended by it… I still say it occasionally. Does James mind? No, he says it himself in the same manner that I do. I have cheated on boyfriends… more than once. I have been a “hater” on the internet. I have slammed a girl’s head into a cement wall (I had a reason though. She wouldn’t stop kissing my boyfriend on the cheek no matter how nicely I asked her to stop). I have made a girl cry so hard that I ended up suspended for two weeks (which my mom so sweetly got me out of but punished me plenty well herself). I have insulted people I don’t know on the streets. To their face. I have broke up with a boy because I didn’t like the back of his head. I have done things so shitty that I don’t speak about them to anyone except my closest friends.

A lot of the things I just named are a part of my past. I no longer do things like that, such as cheating and insulting people for no reason, and I don’t agree with them in any way. My point is that I am not perfect. This perfect good girl image has been bothering me. I find myself continually censoring myself in my videos. “Oh wait, I can’t put that in there. It might offend somebody.” When did this happen to me? I used to LOVE offending people! I used to love stating my opinion no matter what anybody thought of it. I didn’t used to care about pleasing everyone. Why do I now?

One year ago I made a video going into detail about how I cheated on my then-boyfriend, told him about it, his reaction… I was even light hearted about it in the video (not to say I didn’t feel incredible remorse… I did. It was a terrible thing and to this day I want to tell the guy how sorry I am. He was the only good guy besides James I ever dated, and he did not deserve what I gave him). I would absolutely never post a video like that these days. I would be far too afraid of pissing one of my subscribers off and losing them, or pissing some random viewer off who could be a potential subscriber. OR, in fact, pissing off family members who watch my videos. That never used to bother me. I wanted people to accept me for who I am, and if they couldn’t then I really couldn’t give a fuck.

So what the hell happened. Why is it that every time I proofread my videos after uploading them, I have to turn them off halfway through because they make me so goddamn sick? I get so disgusted with myself because I know that I am not being all of who I am.  All that super goody goody sweet wholesome sugar coated BABBLING bores the fuck out of me, to be quite honest. I want to be done with it. I want the people on youtube to see my unpleasant side too. I know I am a good person. I shouldn’t be so afraid to show more sides of myself. I need to stop trying so hard to please every single person who watches my stupid videos, and I need to please myself. That is why my videos aren’t the same anymore. That is why all they consist of these days is boring, mind numbing, pointless shit. I’m done with it. I don’t give a damn if anybody thinks I am a slut, a bitch, a horrible person, a snob, a dumbass… Because in truth I am a little bit of all that. And if I weren’t I’d probably kill myself. I like who I am and it’s about time I start showing it.

That’s it, I can’t stand it anymore! I vow that as soon as I get money I am going to fly Adam to the US and he is going to stay with James and I and we will have loads of fun! He is just sooo much fun.

And oh no, my computer has an infection. It keeps messing up my typing and ugh, it just ruined my whole night. I had planned on playing Sims 2 until I had to go to bed, but now I can’t and I have to go to bed soon (I work at 5:30am tomorrow). So yeah, computer running like tihs. I’m running Spybot, Adaware, and Micro Housecall. Here’s to hoping they do their job.

What is with all the youtubers meeting up these days? I feel left out. I want a youtuber to meet, but I don’t know of any fellow vloggers in my area and I can’t afford to travel at this time. Oh well, continue on with the leaving me out bit.

Wonderful, my computer just froze so I had to shut it off and start everything over. Blegh! I’ll never get to play with my newly created King and Queen on Sims!

My computer is in such shitty condition I can’t even finish this blog. I’m getting irritable. Oh well.

Oh my god. It’s a bat. It’s a plane. It’s a fuzzy dandelion weed thing. No, no. It’s just Emily.

Well. I don’t really know what to say here. Um. I guess I stopped writing in this thing because nobody read it. Well, I guess some people did. I don’t know, should I keep writing in it?

August 5th was me and James’s one year anniversary. We went out to the art museum and one of our favorite restaurants. It was a lot of fun, and here are some pictures. Don’t forget to click on them to see them in good quality.

True love at it’s finest.

Goodnight.

Haven’t posted in forever, I know. I haven’t been able to think of anything really interesting to talk about.

It’s irritating me that I’ve run into some people that don’t want to vote for Obama because he’s black. Not because they hate black people, but because they “don’t want him to be assassinated.” Like something I saw on PostSecret that said “I’m voting for her (Hillary Clinton) because I don’t want him (Obama) to be assassinated.” Well neither do I, man, he seems like a cool guy. But the thing is, he knows what he’s getting into when he’s running to be the first black president of the United States. He knows getting murdered because of hate is a possibility. He is willing to take that chance to change history. That is a pretty good thing, and I say more power to him. So when you’re thinking about who to vote for, just remember that by not voting for Obama because he’s black, you’re still discriminating. Just… in a nicer way than “he’z ngr gtfo ngr.”

In other news, James is on a food run and I couldn’t figure out what I want to do on the interbuttz. I know I want to be on the interbuttz, but I don’t know what I want to do on the interbuttz. So I decided to update my poor, sad, neglected little blog. I never even update my personal blog anymore. I think I just stopped giving a fuck about talking to people, I don’t know. Maybe if I just found someone interesting to talk to.

I straightened James’s hair. Chemically. I thought I did an okay job but his aunt and uncle came over the other day and uh… Welp, I guess I didn’t because his aunt suggested next time that he should go over to their place and she’ll do it. Ah, well. It still looks pretty cute.

In other news, I am way too obsessed with vlogging. James and I are deciding between getting a 1 bedroom apartment and a loft. The loft is nicer, but the thing is that it’s all one room. The bedroom is merely a balcony upstairs overhanging the living room. Not only would we have to keep the place spotless allllllll the time, but I couldn’t go into another room to vlog! No privacy! So I told James that if we got the 1 bedroom I could go into another room to make a video in privacy, but he’s really set on the loft so he was saying he could go outside or go to James Bone’s house when I want to make a video. Haha. I just really want to start making videos more often. I can’t right now because James and I are always in this one little room together. We’ll see, we’ll see.

Welp, May 26 my best friend Natalie graduates from High School. Yayyyyy! James and I are going, and then for the rest of that weekend we’re going to Animazement. Should be fun, idk.

Favorite thing of the week: When people message me on youtube asking if I’m single.

Well, good talking to you guys.

- emily

party time.