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Okay, so it’s been awhile since I had a public blog. The last two times it ended up in the wrong hands and didn’t have good results. Maybe the third time is a charm?
Today was pleasant enough. Got up, went to work (fairly good day), and came home. I honestly don’t do that much. Maybe once I start making more money I’ll be able to do more things.
I’d really like to make a video but I’m dry for ideas. I can come up with little things that’ll take up about 15 seconds, but that’s it. Nothing to really make a blog about. I hope I come up with something soon though, because I’d like to make a video.
I’m working on this painting… I like it, but for some reason a few weeks ago I just lost it. Lost the will to do it. This painting has been sitting on the easel for weeks and I can’t bring myself to touch it. I think it might be complete lack of confidence, but who knows.
As of late I am also having a hard time talking to people. Not because I’m in a bad mood or my life is going horribly wrong, because I’m not and it’s not. I’ve never been very social, but lately I just really do not feel like talking to anyone. So maybe this blog will help me better communicate with people, because just because I don’t talk doesn’t mean I don’t care about what you have to say.
Love,
Emily
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The painting is right as it is. It describes you as you are feeling at this moment, if you keep it this way you’ll back with fond affection.
Comment by Jack February 27, 2007 @ 7:22 amTo Jack:
Comment by blueskyy February 27, 2007 @ 7:24 amBut it’s nowhere near finished! I haven’t colored the shirt, the eyes, the touch-ups… Plus I messed up her cheek, haha.
I have to agree with Jack. I think that you should just leave it be as it does describe you. You could put something in the word blurb that sort of describes your not feeling social. Looks like there’s a faint “No!” there, eh? You could also just leave it blank or maybe fill it in with a mushel of greys to sort of represent the antisocial feeling. As for the cheek…hm. I don’t really know to be honest. I sort of like the eyes blank though.
Comment by Blair February 27, 2007 @ 7:37 amI’ve gone through the-not-wanting-to-talk-to-people-but-not-because-I’m-in-a-bad-mood thing too. It was just a point in my life that I preferred to keep things to myself and if I wanted to talk, I’d talk. For me, it was just a phase, and I’m sure that’s what it is for you too. At least, I hope so ’cause I love watching your blogs on YouTube. :]]
As for the painting: your muse will come back. If need be, take the painting off the easel and try to do another. That way you might come across a stroke of genius that could be added to your painting.
Hope this helped.
Much love,
Comment by Emily February 27, 2007 @ 7:43 amand with your name, hehe.
Emily
Hey Emily! Yay, you have a site now. Lol. They’re pretty fun, well sometimes. Lol. Love the painting by the way, and I have to agree with Jack, and Blair, it looks great how it is.
Comment by Stephanie February 27, 2007 @ 7:46 amemily you should finish your painting the text dialogue should be the first thing that pops into ur head as sson as u look at it, as for not interacting with people Ive gone through the same phase its ok for maybe a week but you should really get out there and mingle with the crowd maybe you can take something away from a group or person that will help you out a bit ttyl
Comment by Royce February 27, 2007 @ 8:01 amRoyce (aka the_choice23)
hmm, well I like that painting, but I’m sure you want to have it look like you want it to look. I’m sort of glad you’re not trying to do things you don’t really want to do. You probably just need a break, i.e., a break from sort of pleasing people. Anyway, I’ve been putting off calling family members for months now, and it’s like some sort of subconscious saboteur keeps me from ever doing it!!! I really love them, so I have no idea why I don’t just call them!! Oh well, the worst thing that could happen is I would have to look into their eyes as they think about why I didn’t call them and made them feel horribly unwanted!!
I’m positive this comment will not do you any good at all.
Comment by nicholas February 27, 2007 @ 8:18 ami recon emily shod fin the pic and emily if your going to put something in the bubble make it say something like your thinking and the eye’s are looken to words the bubble from alex (aka killerbite668) p.s. sorry if ya carnt read my riteing im bed at spelling
Comment by alex February 27, 2007 @ 8:27 amThat was freaky. I could just immagine you reading those words on your blog. I guess I always expect people to have a different writing style to how they actually talk in real life.
Lately I can’t be bothered to make any youtube videos. It could just be laziness.
Comment by Roseanna February 27, 2007 @ 8:38 amHey Em.
That painting is starting off gorgeous! I took that art/painting class as planned and it went really well. We sketched and watercolored and drew with pastels and all kindsa things. It was really fun. I have an acrylic painting class next month, so I’m excited about that too.
As far as going through those anti-social times, I feel you. I have those tendencies from time to time, just because I feel like being alone and having some time to myself. Nothing wrong with that. It’s times like those when I think I get the most accomplished to my highest level of ability. Gives you some time to think and reflect. It’s nice.
That painting… I like it. A lot. I think no matter what you do to it, I’ll still fucking love it. I always love your work. Take care.
Alex [krayzeepunk21]
Comment by Alex February 27, 2007 @ 8:48 amhey emily! Ive been watching your for a while and I just wanted to tell you I love it when you make videos of you painting.. There so fun to watch and I love seeing how they turn out! It always inspires me to draw but I have no artistic talent. I wish I did! lol anywayss just wanted to tell you that your really talented and just wanted to say hey! ttyl
Comment by Katie February 27, 2007 @ 8:51 amCool blog, Nice colors.
PS-I love you accent…Wherever its from
Comment by JoshuaH February 27, 2007 @ 9:27 amIm curious as to what your initial thought was when you originally started the painting.
Lingering in uncertainty is not fun.
Comment by thedraperyfalls February 27, 2007 @ 10:09 amhey emily,
cool that you made a blog again, I really enjoy seeing a part in your life.
Well with the bad phase you got at the moment… thats normal. Maybe its the weather or whatever, it will disappear and then you’ll feel great.
The painting really symbolisies your actual life.
I’ve got an other question: do you sell your paintings? and if whats the range of price?
Comment by Thirteen February 27, 2007 @ 10:33 amI’m not a subscriber, but I usually follow your vlogs, and enjoy them alot!
Really fun with a blog aswell. I will absolutley be checking in here.
Take Care.
Comment by Ingrid February 27, 2007 @ 12:36 pmyou know i go through these phases to. i ignore calls. i pretty much shut myself off from everyone. but it always passes. and i have to many unfinished projects.
Comment by Shay February 27, 2007 @ 1:55 pmBonjour Emilie (French sp) this is one of your viewers from Canada. Having a daily blog is a fantastic idea. I’m sorry that you closed your myspace site though but at least we can follow your exciting life, well more exciting than mine I suspect, through this medium. Anyway if you need ideas for your YouTube vlogs I’ll try to contribute whenever I can. Bye for now
Comment by Wesley February 27, 2007 @ 3:03 pmI think everyone has those moments where they are out of inspiration and ideas and empty in their heads.. :-p
Funny painting!
Now I have to find words to say.. :-p
…
Well, greets and take care.
Comment by Jeroen February 27, 2007 @ 3:09 pmIt does say quite a bit as it is now. I liked it before reading that you were still working on the painting (since it’s a quick thing to see the cliche’ of thousand words of a picture) and your post seemed to fit the picture. An odd unintentional story you’ve told, yet not at all odd at all.
Comment by Gik February 27, 2007 @ 3:44 pmYay!!! You have a blog site! Howwww awesome! MAke more! Its really cool, anyhow! Like the piccy
Chriss
Comment by Chris February 27, 2007 @ 4:21 pmI totally get what your saying…. Majority of the time I don’t want to talk to anyone
either, i’d much rather write as everything seems to come out better… Looking forward
2 reading your blogs… As to the painting..well maybe it’s finished – considering that
at the moment you have no interest in talking to people – this maybe why it’s blank ..
just a thought ..!!!
Reg:
Comment by Ana February 27, 2007 @ 4:48 pmA
Thanks for subscribing to my site.
Comment by Shannon February 27, 2007 @ 5:32 pmI like your blog. Very bright, haha.
Anywho, hope everything is going good and I’ll subscribe to your site as well.
Love!
Hey Em! Love the picture! I’m sure it will turn out wonderful after your done with it. I haven’t seen a picture you have painted yet that I don’t like! Your in my thoughts girl! Take care! Hugs, Bay
Comment by bgirl90 February 27, 2007 @ 5:53 pmI love your paintings
I love art
I think you should post more =D
And…tell me what to write!
Comment by eskimoninja February 27, 2007 @ 7:14 pmYou’re really talented with art….wish I could draw/paint better than I can–mostly I have to stick to stick figures. I guess your painting kinda goes along with not wanting to talk to people–just the feeling I got from it.
Comment by Drew February 27, 2007 @ 7:51 pmYou cannot imagine how much I love this painting. Ive seen yours before, but this is by far my favourite, even if its not finished…
Comment by nicole February 27, 2007 @ 7:54 pmGreetings from Argentina (yeah, youre also known down here, hehe)
niki
Hi Emily!
I love the painting tons! It’s very pretty. I love the fact that there’s someone on youtube that’s nice enough to watch one of my vlogs AND paints. 
(i love painting too)
I’ve been watching your videos for a while and I have truely missed them
Tons of Hugs from Massachusetts,
Comment by Marian February 27, 2007 @ 8:18 pmMarian
Behold, I give you reason! It isn’t self-propagating spam yet, but I’ll work on that.
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Comment by MalcolmCarmen February 27, 2007 @ 8:21 pmBy the picture, it may look different in person, the painting looks good the way it is. Kind of a blank look from the girl.
Comment by Brandy February 27, 2007 @ 8:53 pmAnd I never like talking. I love writing instead of speaking. Is that weird?
Don’t blog if you don’t feel like. Don’t paint if you don’t feel like. Don’t talk to anyone if you don’t feel like. Actually, things aren’t as bad as they seem. You, too, will figure that out…sooner or later.
Comment by Garam Chai February 27, 2007 @ 9:26 pmhey Emily the unfinished painting before you is the reflection of yourself right now kind of unresponsive to the world. It could be many things, the job,family, not being in collage and no money boy I’ve been there. So put the painting away for now and try something new totally different but put your whole self in it and get it all out. Then go back to that painting and you will wonder what hell was the problem. I wish you and James well I love your love story. E-mail me
Comment by rodney February 27, 2007 @ 9:30 pmHi Em… I agree with some of the others. The reason why you can’t paint it is because it’s finished. Maybe you will paint on it some more, but since it’s done, you will spoil it. My mother was an art professor at a college and often had to say this to her students.
It doesn’t feel done, but I suppose neither did the Mona Lisa, or remember the George Washington that wasn’t ever finished. Yet it’s a famous painting.
I like your paintings, they are like you, Child-like, yet beautiful.
One of these days, I want to buy you and James a Starbucks (you still working there??) I get over to RDU sometimes, so maybe we can all do lunch or something….
Your fan VG
Comment by Vintage Gibson February 27, 2007 @ 9:57 pmEmily, you are such a bright spot. I enjoy your videos immensly. What you and James have is awesome. I think one of the reasons why you guys obviously get along so well is because you are both of equal coolness. I really can’t decide who is cooler, or more awesomer. Please keep on with the keepin’ ons like you like, and do your work, workin’ it in such a awesome, cool way. Thank you for making mine, and everyone elses (who ain’t hatin’) lives better because of your existence on this totally fucked up planet. Yr fthfl srvnt, Jason
Comment by jason rockwell February 27, 2007 @ 10:10 pmI so know what you mean about being stuck for video ideas! How about you do 21 questions or something? Ask people for questions and choose 21 that you want to answer and do it.
I’ll start off;
> What’s your earliest memory?
> Name an item of clothing that you either currently own or have previously owned that has some emotional significance for you and why.
> How many times have you had anesthetic and what was it for? (excluding dental stuff)
Comment by aaannarose February 27, 2007 @ 10:39 pmI have had times when I dont want to finish a painting, sometimes two or three at once. Let them sit for awhile away from where u can see it. Then in a month go back and the rest of it will come to u. The painting is very good. The cheeck adds charater… maybe a huge zit that we all get once in awhile.
Comment by Ashley February 28, 2007 @ 12:18 amHey, I would like to keep an update of when you are selling your series of paintings on the internet. ^^ i’ll like….buy one for my mom. She loves your art.
Comment by Lisa February 28, 2007 @ 4:45 amHi Emily, sorry to hear that James’ mom saw that unflattering dispiction of you on timtwo12’s video of you and The Winekone. You should e-mail timtwo12 to remove that video maybe you can bribe him if he doesn’t comply. (Maybe have him featured in one of your future videos or something). Anyway I hope James’ mom was understanding and realizes you had nothing to do with that video. Peace and Shalom
Comment by Wesley February 28, 2007 @ 4:49 amreally something nice to see you know makes me happy
Comment by Jammy February 28, 2007 @ 9:05 pmI’m addicted to you.
Comment by Marc February 28, 2007 @ 11:00 pmI really like your painting. You should definitely finish it.
Comment by ClickHereAndSave March 2, 2007 @ 8:09 amThirteen: I actually really need to sell a painting immediately. I’m charging 100 dollars plus 5 in shipping. If you read this soon, let me know. You didn’t leave me with an email or anything!
Comment by blueskyy March 5, 2007 @ 8:31 amokay.
in all honestly i LOVE when you post videos of you painting. you have such talent when it comes to art wether or not you agree. POST MORE VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE OF YOUR PAINTINGS!
hmmm why you may ask? i love to paint as well and i need some fucking inspiration.
thanx.
peace.
Comment by Danielle-xxox March 20, 2007 @ 9:36 pmdanielle-xxox
I totally agree with what Jack (Post #1) said. It looks great just the way it is! Your already an aspiring artist! Keep up the good work!
Comment by RnD March 24, 2007 @ 6:14 pmI love your pianting.
I think it funny.
like what you did whit the hear.
If i paint its gone by a realy big mes.
Love your site one youtube.
Bye bye
Comment by Liridon April 1, 2007 @ 4:18 pmI know everyone says this…….now i am going to: Ignore the haters!
Comment by Ispeaknonsense April 16, 2007 @ 2:21 amDont even acknowledge thier exsistance, because i have found out
that its stupid to argue over the internet, you cant change thier mind
so dont bother. On a happy note, congrates on the band. I also am
in a band! As a bass player. Be warned though, it doesnt matter who
your band brothers/sisters are your band will stress you out! So just
be patience and hope for a gig! DO you play block chords? Our
Keybordist does and it sounds great! We have been playing for weeks
and we are improving slowly! What is your band called? Mine is called
Pleasantly Warped! Blessings on your Band, Paintings and James!
Where are the two blue dots?…
Comment by MagnificentMacak January 2, 2008 @ 5:06 am